everyone i know is falling in love

my god, i’m full of dinner and walking slow
not looking to be known but looked at

i’m most beautiful in torrid half-light
like tonight, but no luck:

i bought up the scratch offs
littered the sidewalk with one

the rest placed atop a trash heap
chiaroscuro rotting black plastic chic

picked an album to hear
fell in love to it once:

flutter time transporter
memory soft belly hoarder

haven’t loved since
really haven’t been looking

just writing what i know
walking slow, etcetera

looked back at my spent luck
balanced unkindly on the pile:

hot garbage smells the same
without a soul to see me home